I've been thinking a great deal lately about how much words can hurt and how one carelessly said comment can ruin a week's worth of building up self esteem and body image. Here are some examples from my life: You'd have a really pretty face, if it were a bit thinner (in college), you sound out of breath (several times after walking up a flight of stairs), Are you Ok? (people ask me this often because I guess I look like I'm limping a lot?), You are getting a little chubby, there is some pie in the kitchen (years ago from my grandma). Some of these things were said by acquaintances, friends, family, and coworkers. I know, or at least I would hope, that these things were not said with malice. The effect was the same though. It hurt. I am an emotional eater. I eat when I'm sad, happy, depressed, mad, bored, and hurt. I know I need to work on this and redirect my energy. I have to find a better way to handle my emotions and deal with them with no food involved. The last time I experienced hurt I failed at this goal, I went to KFC. But I have been doing better on the boredom front! I have done well with my no food after 8pm rule ( I had desert after 8 tonight but I was really hungry and not bored and I ate healthy not junk!). : )
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