Yesterday was looking like a rough day early in the morning. First, I GAINED 3 pounds this week! Arrrg... It is things like that that make me want to give up. I have done everything right this week, I've been getting more exercise, I've been eating better, I'm feeling better, but I still GAINED weight?!? How is this possible? Water weight? Grrrr... So, this already has be blah yesterday. Then I discover that I have lost a binder at work! Now, this binder is NOT mine and it is the 2nd one I've lost! This is crazy! I keep them in a locked room :( Again, Grrrr... I guess the only thing I can do is fess up (again) and offer to pay for them.
Now, normally this would send me running for my food. I mean, I've been trying for a whole week giving it all I've got and what happens? I gain weight?!? AHHHHH!! Why even bother? Then, something else makes me feel bad, the prospect of getting in trouble at work, a deep seated issue that goes back years. So, here it is 7 days in and I have my biggest test so far.
This is the time I remind myself of a few things: 1. This competition may end in April but the life changes I make during the process will last for the rest of my life. 2. This is a marathon not a sprint. I need to be in this for the long haul and not worry about a little set back. 3. I've been through hard times at work and in life before and I have survived. This is no different (at least my performance eval. is good this time!) 4. Weight changes for several reasons. I intend to research those reasons and make a future blog post about them. I know time of day, clothing, and time of month can affect weight.
As the day progressed I started feeling better. I started researching reasons for weight gain and I had planned to buy a scale on my way home and probably some weights too (this didn't happen by the way so now the plan is to purchase one today).
I started watching a new show on A&E called HEAVY. It comes on Monday nights and is very good. I am so very greatful that I am not that size. It is by the grace of God that I am not that size. It is so inspirational to me to see these stories. It really makes me think if these people can lose weight so can I!
Now, normally this would send me running for my food. I mean, I've been trying for a whole week giving it all I've got and what happens? I gain weight?!? AHHHHH!! Why even bother? Then, something else makes me feel bad, the prospect of getting in trouble at work, a deep seated issue that goes back years. So, here it is 7 days in and I have my biggest test so far.
This is the time I remind myself of a few things: 1. This competition may end in April but the life changes I make during the process will last for the rest of my life. 2. This is a marathon not a sprint. I need to be in this for the long haul and not worry about a little set back. 3. I've been through hard times at work and in life before and I have survived. This is no different (at least my performance eval. is good this time!) 4. Weight changes for several reasons. I intend to research those reasons and make a future blog post about them. I know time of day, clothing, and time of month can affect weight.
As the day progressed I started feeling better. I started researching reasons for weight gain and I had planned to buy a scale on my way home and probably some weights too (this didn't happen by the way so now the plan is to purchase one today).
I started watching a new show on A&E called HEAVY. It comes on Monday nights and is very good. I am so very greatful that I am not that size. It is by the grace of God that I am not that size. It is so inspirational to me to see these stories. It really makes me think if these people can lose weight so can I!
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